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I'm finally sitting down and taking a second to process this past weekend. I feel like my trip up to SLO County was the breathing space I needed but so much to take in all at once! ⁣
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It worked out to be the most perfect timing that my grandpa was scheduled to speak at a conference up there on the one weekend of the year that my head was completely clouded with anxious thoughts about the future. ⁣
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I went into Momentum Conference wanting clarity; a clear, audible answer, but I left with ASSURANCE; a deep and true sense of knowing that whatever the outcome of the situation I’m facing is, I will be okay.⁣
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Among many other things, I also learned that joy and celebration are not just choices, but spiritual disciplines that give us the strength to carry on through the trials of life. I had the pleasure of putting this to practice with some of the people who mean the absolute world to me! From laughing around a fire and sitting down to share meals, to diving into deep conversations while driving down back roads and frolicking across rolling hills as the sun sunk behind them - this weekend was a memorable one. #grateful

It’s crazy how overflowing gratitude can turn into crippling anxiety in a moment. Yesterday I spent too long in my journal, reflecting on how grateful I am for what I have here in LA. I ended I up paralysed by steady flow of anxious tears, fears and thoughts of what the future holds.
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Having lived in almost 30 houses in my mere 22 years, I become fearful when I become comfortable. I’ll often avoid creating deep roots in the fear that, like a flower, I’ll be uprooted yet again to become a seed in new soil. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I have an obsessive need to capture and document each moment out of the fear that it will soon be a distant memory. I feel the need to hold on to everything so tightly - to plan out and control every aspect of my life. I leave little very room in my heart to trust God, his will for my life and that everything will be made beautiful in his perfect time. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
So I’ll keep singing the following words until they ring true to my soul:
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“I will be anxious for nothing, hold on to one thing: my comfort; my peace. I will be safe in your presence so fierce and so tender. My comfort, my peace.”

I know I post a million and one @paperloveboutique appreciation posts, but Susanna really does know how to make life beautiful. I’m not sure why I ever leave the house. 😍 #susannafanclub #spreadthepaperlove

As the Pacific horizon is highlighted in a fluorescent orange, moments like these are painted in our memories forever. These are the golden days. 🧡

Roses are red, violets are blue. I can’t finish this caption, so I’ll leave it up to you, @da_noodle_ . ❤️🌹

Forget private jets, airplane mode is the new luxury! ✈️🙅🏻‍♀️📞